Hi, im Elaine. im 19 this year. still looking for my santa claus.
i am obsessed with;
harry potter, twilight, and myself.
i absoutely hate;
guys (i'm 100% straight)
So you think you can dance?
Shopping List
i want,
lots of money
a boyfriend
a meaningful career
damn good figure
pretty clothes
Hmm... So much on my mind, where should i start first?
Okay. First of all, I'm so sorry to Maggie and Clara darlings because i'm late today and couldn't catch them online. Maggie promised we could have a webcam session today! But oh well, i went for dinner with dear loan and got home late. SORRYYYY! I'm glad i had a chance to talk to Clara today, because i think we're okay now. I hope she knows how much i care, and i certainly hope nothing changes when i go back, but its inevitable sometimes.
To say the truth, i was really heartbroken when i saw Clara's blog yesterday. Because i didn't expect our friendship to become stale. I remember all the fights we had before, and it just makes me treasure this friendship even more. But i saw her blog today, and i think its back to normal now. Now i know how much it cost per minute to just give me a call for 10min. LOL. Told her its expensive already, but she say it don't matter. And now, she's asking me for money! So "noble" huh!
I'm also very jealous of all my friends in singapore. I just can't help feeling upset when i heard about their outings. I'm happy that they are going on well of course, just feel sorry for myself. Haha. Yes, no doubt i have made some new friends in Vietnam, but the feeling just isn't the same. No matter what, i still miss my friends in singapore. I miss the feeling of chatting on the phone, going to kbox outing, working in BT, walking around singapore and going to restaurants. But still, i try to be positive in every way. I try to hold a smile and tell myself i'm really happy here. Yea, right, I'm soooo gay. LOL. But the feeling of loneliness is still there. And the fear of being forgotten by friends. I'm not a person who would express my love freely in the past, because i don't know how to, i wish my friends know just how much i love them, i wish they know how much i care; likewise for my family. I'm learning though...
My colleagues asked me if i wanted to go to Dalat for holiday with them. They say the previous intern didn't have such a chance to go around with them. I so love my colleagues in Vietnam, i hope it would be the same in singapore. I'll consider though, because they're all going in couple. Hais.
sometimes i'm glad i came to vietnam, because i learned how to let you go
