there is this story that a friend of mine share with me:
she was a very trusting girl even though she had several heartbreaks. she's not all that strong even when she puts up a strong pretense most of the time to hide her weakness. just like any other girl, she too yearns for a guy who will love and care for her.at her loneliest moment, she found a guy who she thought will stand by her. but she was afraid because she couldn't afford another heartbreak, and so she promise herself that she would never fall in love again if this guy fail her. she thought her heart would be treated with care, and she put her whole heart into it despite several warnings from her friends. at last, the guy broke her heart and leave her numb. again, she have to put up that strong pretense pretending she's okay. but i know, her heart will never heal again. i feel sorry for her, if only she had listen to the warnings and not her heart, maybe her heart will have a chance to heal one day. whats done is done, we cannot turn back time.that is the story she share with me. she couldn't really trust any guys again after that. but she look so happy i feel sad for her, because i know she has been holding her tears for a long time. at this time, all she need is a listener to listen to her and lend her a shoulder to lean on. in conclusion, i still believe in my philosophy: guys cannot be trusted (my father's an exception). hahha. OKAY END OF STORY
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now back to myself. lols. please don't ask me who the girl is, i promise not to reveal her name. not as if you all know her anyway. haha. i was thinking about what would happen when i go back to singapore. friendships and etc. i know i've change in some way, therefore everything would be different when i go back because of the change in my attitude and the way i handle stuffs. BUT, the most important factor is, friends who has make new BF may not have time for me! how sad. but its okay, i'm gonna drag them all out and go to my favourite hangout: KBOX! today is father's day! and later i'm going shopping! seriously, i really must save money le, have a feeling my bank account is quite empty. i hate this penniless feeling. oh ya, and i've yet to do my report which i plan to do today, i'll postpone to next sunday then. hahaha. so excited when i think about my P3, and so touched Jun Tee wrote a whole long post about me in her blog. ya la, feel honoured can. LOL. she should be touched i write her name here also.have been thinking about my friendship with Clara... it hasn't been a easy one, with lots of fights and makeups in between. i love her so much because she's always there for me. thank you my dear. and ming hui, i think we had a special kind of friendship which i can't define in words because its splendid. anyhow........ i miss ALL of my friends. primary school friends; secondary school friends, poly school mates; breadtalk mates; and my vietnam colleagues. til then. i wish her heart would heal soon; its been too hard on her all this while.
