Loving you is my favourite mistake;

July 15, 2009

twinny is not going to post here again. lol. so its now my personal public space again.

hmm...
i've been having good food these past few days. pastas for 3 nights and pizza for yesterday. i da bao the leftover pizza for breakfast this morning. but in the end, i threw it away coz it was chao ta. bleah.

anyway, there's a new cute colleague in the office today. cute cute. good good. HAHAH.

i have nothing interesting to write here anymore, nothing juicy. so sian.
might be closing down this blog soon.
byebyebyebyebye

my facebook profile would be much more interesting.

*waves goodbye*

loves;
11:00 AM;

July 14, 2009

my blog post is gonna be a whole lot more boring than all my previous post now. yea, as my life goes on in vietnam and i have another place to vent my frustration about the sea and the sharks, it gets boring in my private space here. LOL.

well........
i wanted to complain about my eyes. this office job leaves me with computer vision syndrome. and i'm not kidding okay. its still a syndrome and i have all the signs of it. my eyes is literally going bonkers. i can't even focus on near objects now. i'm seriously considering getting a spectacle, i don't want to be blind when i go back. hais.

and because of that, i was so guai to go to bed straight after i reach the villa just to rest my poor eyes. had pasta for dinner yesterday and the leftovers for breakfast today. i'm soooooooo falling in love with CABONARA PASTA! omg. but its not cheap either, i really have to start saving now! let me have the motivation ba: diet and save money! goodgood.

i really hate computers now. can i just wave goodbye immediately. NO! left with final reports. HAIS.

countdown: 1 month=4weeks=30 days

i miss all of my darling friends!
and my sunny lovely super accessible SINGAPORE!

loves;
10:18 AM;

July 13, 2009

yay! i finally had a private place to rant about my private troubles. LOL.
so exciting!!!

okay, anyways.
i was so shock when i got back to the villa yesterday. the toilet was full (ok, not exactly full) of ANTS! omg. i went crazy and went back to being my insect exterminator. i think i got used to seeing them now. hais. so i quickly get my gloves and get my insecticides! sadly, my 2 existing bottles were already use up. i end up resorting to the natural way of killing them: my favourite BABY POWDER! wahaha! but i still saw them this morning. whyyyyy??? i can't even bath in peace. kns.

i finally had a sort of life yesterday. at least i didn't coop in my room all day. went out with Ms Marianne for lunch, salon for hair treatment and manicure. i spend a whole lot. omg. but its a nice day out. Ms Marianne never fails to inspire me and motivates me. she never fails to emphasize how much a girl should love herself.

i'm so dying to eat pastamania. so dying to go kbox. so dying to meet my girlfriends and besties. so dying to highlight my hair again. i don't know whether i should rebond though. cause being with straight hair is so bored. but perm hair makes my already round face looks even rounder. any ideas?

i really love my twinny cause she gave great ideas. HAHA.
i got a different and super unique defination of WTH yesterday.
now i will LOL whenever i see WTH.
coz Hanafi say WTH=WHAT THE HANAFI!
so funnyyyy.

i'm looking forward to august because i have so many things to do. but no money. zzz. i'll need to work like hell when i go back. hope breadtalk accepts me.

i can't help but laugh at twinny's post.
LOL.

loves;
2:13 PM;

July 12, 2009

firstly, i am terribly upset and angry w myself.
twinny that ass tell me to blog my anger and emoshit here
SOIGONNASAYYOKELIANSUCKSTOTHECORE!!!!
SHEDONTKNOWHOWTOCALMMEDOWN
LOUSYMAN
IHATEHERNOW
BUTIAMSTILLCHATTINGONLINEWITHHER
IDKY
THINGSAINTGOINTHEWAYIWANTITTOBE
ASSWITHAHOLE.BLARDYHELL.DAMNSHIT.SUCKS.GOANDDIELA!

i still dont feel relief. shit blogger.
whatever. you all should know who i am now.

loves;
11:21 PM;

July 11, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUN TEE!
you should be so honoured can, i wish you such a BIG happy birthday on your birthday.
HAHAHHA.

i'm so lazy to update now.
will update when i got the energy.
but by then i'll forgot what i wanted to write already.
LOL.
so there.

oh ya, was taking a nap just now. guess what? i dreamt of my P3!!! omg, i didn't know i was so obsessed with it til now. hahah. but i dreamt the P3 was like super ugly and not nice to click at all. i know its a bad dream.

~~i just know i still miss him so much, why can't i forget?~~
yea, i'm just good at talking, not doing.
i said i would forget, but i can't do it.
why do i keep thinking? damn.
:(

loves;
5:07 PM;

July 10, 2009

hello, this is peiru again.
i have to make my twin happy.
if not she decided to break our r/s like
the one she have with her p. sch best friend.
kay, since her topic of today is bout friendship.
i will talk bout friendship

my first best friend that i feel super close to
was a person of the opposite gender and age 6 yrs older(:
because of he's exist,
i withdraw from my social life just for him and his younger bro.
hahahahhhaaaaa. like seriously. damn stupid. nods.
whatever it is.
i so hope he will live happily and ever after with his angels.
cause 13 july is the very day, he got a LATE in front of his name.

the point is i am so glad i am putting that friendship down for more to come.
i had made it and one day when i come to realise
peiru will have a best guy friend again. claps claps.

i made my recent life a life of no regrets. cause I LOVE IT.
time to make your life a happy once in a lifetime (:

loves;
8:37 PM;

alot of events happened yesterday which makes me think about my past.
the past me, especially in primary school, was what i would call myself literally spineless. i don't have the guts to stand up for myself. i don't take the initiative to mingle and socialise. and i'm very much a sorry girl, which means i'll apologize regardless of whether i'm at fault. yea, its so hard to imagine the kind of transformation i went through to become the Elaine today.

i remember i had this best friend in primary school, when i was really young. that best friend i would name X. X was the total opposite of me. she was outgoing and sociable. but she's really petty and get angry at the slightest things. and everytime when we quarrel, i would be the first to say sorry because she never would. this kind of unhealthy friendship carried on for some time before i decided to cut it off cause its making me so tired. but she is a great friend still. its okay if we're not that close.

because of this, i didn't want to get too close to any friends in secondary schools. i enjoy having friends to hang out with, but i tend to withdraw myself if i find that the friendship is getting too close.

i didn't know when all that changes. perhaps its the time since i came to vietnam. i'm not that yoke lian anymore. not that spineless, sorry girl. i know how to stand up for myself, and i enjoy super close friendships with my girlfriends. i can comfort you and be a real good listener if you're sad or emo over anything and i won't judge you. somehow, anger is still a very stranger emotion to me, since i'm so rarely angry. thats why i don't understand why people get angry sometimes. oh yes, i'm super angry at the scammer, but i blame it on the stupidity of mine.

i was surprised at myself yesterday. i was actually asking myself whether i'm in the wrong before i say the word sorry. a true sorry doesn't come out easy for me. now i can see the transformation i have gone through so clearly.

this is just for my reflection purpose. direct to only myself and nobody else.

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i hate sharks.
and i'm still waiting for twinny to post here.
i hate computers.
i'm waiting to use my handphone when i reach singapore.
i hate falling into the sea with sharks.
but i love whales to play water games with me.
LOL.

loves;
10:02 AM;

July 9, 2009

clear throat.
i have no particular idea of what to type here.
cause i am not the owner of this blg.
twin had given me a right to post in the blg.

i knew her through eng in sec sch.
at that time they tgt with the other two, were known as SEMIBREVE.
that was the well-known dislikable group in school. (lol)

we nv really talk to each other
i sticked w eng and her fav kingkong(yt) in school all the time
while she was at the other side of the world.
after we graduated. twin, eng, yt, me came tgt.
i only got to know her when she is in vietnam sadly
she was labelled as my beastie, and darling.
now my twinny, as we get to know we are alw in the same boat.
in anw, we will be learn dance tgt when she gets back from vietnam.

this is her demanded post from me
in return of her pw for this blg to me.

yup yup, love love.

loves;
6:30 PM;

went to the graduation concert yesterday! the kids were sooooo cute and their performance was so good that i nearly cried. i swear i had tears in my eyes when i see their performance. or maybe its because of the michael jackson's song that i'm having this kind of abnormal reaction. LOL. hais. now i have two darling boys to look forward to when i come to work. Richie and derrick! omg de cute!

~~anyway, i was thinking of B... again! hais. i've got so much to say.~~
in short, i just miss him alot. and don't tell me how unrealistic it is. i already know.
i really feel like seeing him. silly as it may sound, i just feel he's the one.

2 more days and it'll be dear Jun Tee's birthday! so sorry i couldn't buy a present for her this year. HAIS. its really a kind of regret. LOL. i promise i'll get pictures for her from the yoosu cafe before i go back to singapore. hopefully i remember. hahah.

clara and ming hui.......... please come online please please please. zzz. i wana test my webcam. LOL.

loves;
12:59 PM;

July 8, 2009

thanks god Tu called me in the morning, if not i'll still be sleeping now! i was so damn blur yesterday i set my alarm at 7.20PM! omg de can. zzz. i can even prepare myself to go out in like 20 minutes. so super pro. hahaha.

Anyway, went out with Loan, her brother, her brother's friend and her cousins. it is QUITE awkward la. cause its hard when i don't understand their language. but they are all very funny peeps. and vietnamese guys are really handsome. her brother just came back from the US, and will be going to singapore today. i'm so jealous. the friend of her brother looks abit like jay chou though, very cute! LOL. and we chat abit here and there. oh ya, i finally had a decent neoprint with Dear Loan. HAHHA. i look older than her somehow. HAIS. my face seems so old, dry and crumpled, becoming like an old woman. :(

and i'm going to help out at the graduation concert for little kids today. super exciting! they are so super cute can. wahahah.

i can finally end my poor days because i just got my salary yesterday! :D

til then, i gtg now.

loves;
10:31 AM;

July 7, 2009

people had been saying on their blog or just simply telling me how great the TRANSFORMER movie is... I KNOW HOW GREAT THAT MOVIE IS!! and i seriously wana watch it. but by the time i reach singapore, its already out.... Not that vietnam don't have, but i wanted the subtitles in english and not vietnamese. zzz.

anyway, i think my vietnamese is really not bad now. if i keep on practising, people won't even question my nationality. HAHAH. i'm really scared i'll have the vietnam slang when i go back singapore. hais. cause some of my friends say i don't have my singapore slang anymore. how sadddd.

was planning to go to Genting with one of my friends after i go back to singapore. in the end, i'll be going with my family AND my friend. LOL. i really hope they won't cancel. i realise everytime i say out the events i'm hoping for, it just won't come true in the end. so kns! still, i'm so looking forward to this family trip. its been so long since we go for a holiday together. exciteddddd!

my dear boyfriend's birthday is coming! so sad i cannot celebrate with her this year. but okay la, save my money. LOL. and she never read my blog anyway, so its okay. HAHAH.

stay strong....

loves;
2:20 PM;

July 5, 2009

the internet in the villa has become really shitty! i've been dc-ing for don't know how many bloody times in these 2 days already. zzz. but lucky its okay now, i guess. hahah.

has been listening to claire's (Guo Jing) songs lately. its really nice can! her voice, her songs, totally my style! hahah.

and my dear clara has been so distracted lately. see how love makes people go crazyyyy. and eddie too! LOL. great. now people around me are almost attached. BUT i am so not tempted to fall into this kind of trap. peer pressure don't work in such case for me. HAHAH.

my mum was asking me why i spent $400 on my card the previous month.... and reminded me of that shitty guy. OH MANNNN. but its okay, i'll just shop lesser. that means saving on soveniers too. so sorry peeps.

i only ate 1 meal today. so proud of myself! hahah. and i realise its been so long since i tasted my lovely ice milo. lols. has started drinking back since yesterday, since i have no money to buy coffee. LOL.

oh well. i was like really thinking about B yesterday. and i was telling myself to wait til 1am, because he's usually online during that time. but in the end, i gave up because i really cannot tahan. LOL. but still, he called me yesterday. makes me real happy and unable to continue my sleep. HAHAH. i miss him la, seriously. i'm still hoping we can be together one day. i'll be waiting. i'm not going to give up halfway. you gotta fight for what you want right?

loves;
11:32 PM;

July 4, 2009

it feels like so long since i blog... the internet connection totally sucks everytime it rains here. have been busy slacking when i should really be working hard on my reports. much thanks to Ms Marianne who have been giving me advice and encouragement and my wonderful colleagues who really make my day by keeping me laughing. hahha. they make my life here so much more fun. but... i still look forward to going back home, back to my lovely singapore! :)

i think i make dear Clara angry today. think my joke was too far. hahha. but anyway, i did all i can. i message her on her phone, left a offline message on msn. she didn't reply, so what am i supposed to do? oh well.... bleah. see! thats why love left u blind and moodless. i went through the exact same situation, but i'm so over it. i can't say i don't miss it though, but i feel i live my life better now. so much better.

since that incident, i've become really strong and happy. happy not because of that shitty guy but because... i'm just happy. hahah. people will change no matter what, and i know clearly i've changed in these 5 months. even i realised that, so my friends would surely notice when i go back. i think i believe in myself more, more confidence, much more straightforward, and i totally love myself now. all thanks to the shit i've gone through here. its so not easy for me can. you would only understand if you had gone through the same shit as me.

Was planning to go on some trip with dear Ming Hui, BUT SADLY, she told me she couldn't take leave. hais. might as well, i'll save money for my P3! i'll buy it no matter what! wahahha, been yearning for it since forever. i'm so running out of money already. but its okay, i can always earn it back. lols.

how sia, i have all the symptoms of computer vision syndrome! my poor eyes...... i'm like looking at the computer for the full 12 hours; at work; in the room; basically just the whole day. so tired of it!

report due on monday!
doing final company assessment on monday too!

til then.

~~there's no point being so serious. life's just a big joke.~~

loves;
6:35 PM;

July 1, 2009

the elaine i know has return! maybe not as strong, but still trying! hahah.

anyway, had a really fun day out with Ms Marianne and Ms Loan. we went to buds for dinner which was on Ms Loan. I swear she is sooooooo funny can! and we're both kind people, too innocent. yea, i think you should know the rest. LOL. but hers is ALMOST. mine is..... dots. she was telling me how she couldn't ever remember the names of the online guys she met and when the guy called, she just keep saying: oh ya, thats right. yeayeayea. LOL. and she's already 50 yrs old! i know it sounds not very funny here. but just because of my poor writing skills. HAHA.

so its like 4 nights in a row i had my dinner treated by different people. i feel so loved. hahah. i really feel happy today. even though i had nothing interesting going on in my life. but i just feel so happy i wanted to write something in my blog.

went to help out in the graduation concert today. see all the little kids. they are so so so cute! i guess its because of them that i'm so happy today. seeing them makes me wana have my own little children. LOL. yea, i'm too young for that.

another factor contributing to my happiness today is actually my report's results. its not fantastic, but at least its the best out of the three results i've received so far. and its worth 20%!

i really hope i stay this way all the way until august! i'm so happy. that incident is like long forgotten. Buddha bless me!

~~i just feel like playing now~~

loves;
10:27 PM;