just another sudden thought that goes through my mind.

its gonna be 2010 in just two days! how time flies, its scary. i already set my 2010 resolution. its a one and only. i swear i'll make it come true.

loves;
9:37 PM;

loves;
8:18 PM;

i have a strong feeling to write another post for today because of my new skin! LOL! thanks to a wonderful friend of mine, i now have a fabulous skin, and i believe that's one of my most beautiful skin so far. hahahha.

was planning to watch avatar with dear Maggie tml, but i guess have to cancel. there's no student price and i have ALOT of assignments yet to be completed. i'm so dead.

loves;
9:35 PM;

loves;
6:15 PM;

all i can say is, that siao zha bo kept me entertained the whole day while working. its a delight to work with her. she's so funny i simply wana ROFL! HAHAHAH.

and people should never eat expired stuffs. i know now because i end up having a stomach upset from eating a expired gingerbread man :(but it was really nice, not worth the pain though.

loves;
7:51 AM;

just came back from the doctor's. lucky, the bump on my neck is not a tumour! HAHAHA. not that i thought it was in the 1st place.

anyway, got some medicine. hope my scalp will recover really soon. hais.

gonna rush to work now. bye peeps! :)

loves;
11:59 AM;

loves;
9:01 AM;

gonna watch new moon AGAIN with my sis later. early in the morning sumore. tsk. and i'm broke!

my scalp is really getting from bad to worse lor. THEREFORE, i've decided to go for a scalp treatment after the movie. and its not cheap i think. i know i know, shoot me for spending money again. not that i really feel good spending de lor, just that i dunwan to become a young baldy girl. its like so pain can, i can't even sleep properly! my head even had a little bump, which i think is actually a swollen bone, that hurts too. not to mention all my unrecovered bruises and the newly found painness in my mouth. ouch. its like pain everywhere. i can't stand it laaaaaaaaaa.

hais. meeting jun tee they all for dinner at jp today. erm, have to spend money for hazel's birthday present. i'm wondering if the christmas exchange is still on. coz i'm seriously broke. blame me for suggesting the christmas exchange. zzz.

seriously feeling very sick today. i swear i won't go to neighbourhood salon for chemical hair services ever again! :(

loves;
9:48 AM;

went to work today, and i got bruises all over my legs. zzz. but nevertheless, i'm happy! i really feel so happy and natural working there. i really dunwan to quit. the people there always keeps me entertained. but HAIS. its quite pointless to work as a cashier when you already got a diploma right? yea, ppl would say you're stupid.

but i'll really miss the people there :(

no work tml though. so sad. hahaha. perhaps watching new moon again with my sis tml. i'll very much rather watch avatar.

i hope the holidays would never end.

loves;
9:17 PM;

went for colour and hair treatment yesterday, cost me a bomb can. zzz. and the colour is a teeny bit too bright. hahaha. its just brown and brown though. and i think my scalp is probably too sensitive. its still hurting now. ouch. feels so sick after the whole colouring thing.

went bugis yesterday and had a great day shopping! lols. i promise i wun spend money on other irrelevant things anymore. time to start saving! argh.

had been sleeping pretty late these past few days. and now my eyes is swollen! great, i still gonna work tml, what a great timing.

loves;
1:18 PM;

was dead TIRED from yesterday's outing with my girls, and one boy among us flowers. HAHAHA. the outing with them was always great and fun.

we went to bugis street for window shopping. and then the real activity comes at night!

finally i had a chance to sit on the flyer!!!!!! but actually not much feeling la. its the people who's with us that matters. they are wonderful! we celebrated carolyn's birthday on the flyer, sang happy birthday song like nobody's businesses and tasted the very delicious strawberry cheesecake baked my cynthia! oh mannnnnnnn, her cake is sooooooooo divine, and she bake it herself sumore. so talented right. lols.

but so tired i almost fainted in the mrt on the way home. i know i'm weak, but i hadn't had a bite of rice yesterday lo. and rice is very important in my daily meal. =P

so todayyyyyyyy, i'm gonna meet dear ming hui. going shopping again! this time, i'm NOT going to window shop, gonna spend some money. oh! and KARAOKE! she's the only one now who will accompany me to go and sing lorrrrrrrr. sad right. hais.

til then, i'm considering whether or not to colour my hair later. hahaha. byeeeeee peeps, happy good morning :)

loves;
8:44 AM;

loves;
10:48 AM;

loves;
10:56 PM;

loves;
9:07 AM;

exam is finally over! i really felt a sense of relief and excitement when i finish my paper today. so weird right, not as if i had exams for the first time. haha. now comes the time to play, relax and finish my ASSIGNMENTS! omg. so many assignments i duno where to start. zzz.

was watching feng tian wei on channel 5 yesterday, the live pingpong SEA game show! SHE WON! OMG DE SHUAI CAN! hais, if i can see her in real life jiu hao le...

gonna get ready christmas presents for my friends le. and yet to get my sister's birthday present. she say she want harry potter collection which cost around $100+, siao de lor. where can i get those money for her sia. tsk tsk.

sometimes.... i will still think and think. but its no use, i shan't think about anything anymore. let nature take its course.

loves;
7:58 PM;

was watching a hk drama yesterday about the woman who's highly skilled in martial arts being killed by other assasins in order to save her husband. so touching i cried! omg. let my father see til i cry sumore, so paiseh. lols. but its so saddening la. hais.

the test yesterday was.... okay la. sure can pass. but i hope can get at least a B. the paper is not hard actually, just tricky. its time to prepare for tml's paper le. hope the paper is easy too. hahaha.

anyway, was thinking of my future career path yesterday. i'm definately going to uni, by hook or by crook, whether its private or local uni. but i dun really like to study business, and definately not going to be in those kind of work whereby i'll stay in the office whole day and sit til my butt rot. so i've decided to get a degree in social work! at least its also a government job right? but duno i can find jobs in the future a not. hais. social work is meaningful and i can go around helping people, dunid stay in office so sian. my mum ask me what i'm going to do after my final exam, before getting my diploma. and guess what? i told her i wana be a sales person in retail outlet, as in those selling clothes de. and she say me "mei chu xi". tsk. i just die die dunwan sit in the office and see computer cannot meh.

just thinking of planning for twin's birthday left me feeling excited! hahaha. oh! and this friday too! we'll have a happy outing to the FLYER! finally i can have my holidays.

i'm prepared to forget and forgive for what he did to hurt me. its hard to let go, but its harder to hold on to it. stay strong elaine!

loves;
9:54 AM;

if you know she's a good girl? would you hurt her? bring her bad news? or would you treat her as a friend even when she should be your enemy in reality?

i think for now. i would leave things as it is. i won't probe. i know how fantastic the girl is, both the inner beauty and the outer one. she's your sunshine. yea, just leave it as it is.

enough of emoing, back to studies. its common test tml! yucks!

loves;
5:02 PM;

even though the incident has been quite long ago. and i finally know the truth today. or maybe i knew the truth all along, just that i didn't wana admit it. didn't wana face the harsh reality.

i duno why. but when i see the pictures. i just feel like crying all over again. i didn't know it hurts that much. i never expect that pain to come back. why did you treat me like a fool? why can't i be more clever? i should have listened to those advice. you were faking all along, i should have known.

i'm not gonna let those tears fall again, not for any other of them. stay strong.

loves;
11:28 PM;

loves;
4:34 PM;

he was online just now. i didn't say hi. and i duno why he still can have the cheek to say hi to me after all that has happened. what's on his mind? not that i want to know. i'm so tired i dun wana care anymore. not about him.

was revising LM the whole day. sadly, NOTHING goes in my head. how?

i think i still prefer working to studying now. people don't cherish what they have until its gone. its so true.

i'm so glad i have my own personal blog back. its really a great ranting ground.

i must first learn to love myself for now.

loves;
10:04 PM;

i thought i would never regret making that call, but now i do. when the bill comes, my mood was totally down down down and down! maybe its just naive of me at that point in time, but its the best decision that i could make AT THAT TIME. so ya, its my fault now even if i do regret.

the projects are like coming on so strongly. honestly, its making me hard to breathe even. i need a shoulder to lean on now seriously, a hand to show me the way, a person to listen to me. but in this world, you can only rely on yourself and no one else. i'm fake, so dun ever trust my happy go lucky facade.

since i'm now so unhappy and stress, i might just cut off all my hair. yup, i'll do just that.

loves;
8:43 PM;

I'M STRESSED! :(

common test is just NEXT MONDAY! and i haven even started to study on anything yet! i'm gonna die seriously, my gpa gonna fail, can i even graduate? why others dun have common test and we have? WHYYYYYY?

wasted my time going for IB tutorial today. its like i'm going there to mark attendance only. why? because for the whole 2 hours, the tutor didn't even go through anything as she told us to discuss project on our own. fine, i did NOTHING at all during the whole 2 hours. and seeing us doing nth, she also do nothing. zzz. and dun even let us go early, rather let us sit in the class and rot! omg. what kind of tutorial is this? if i know, i wouldn't have gone.

anyway, finally changed my handphone. and guess what, it hanged in the midst of typing a sms on the 2nd day of use. i abit shocked can. lols. but nvm, still can function and its $0! so cannot complain so much. haha.

just watch 5 episodes of my hk drama, so shiokkkkk! but end up didn't manage to study. i promise i wun watch it again until after common test! hope i can do it.

i am still thinking whether i should cut short hair. hais. so should i? long hair is sometimes abit boring le. sian arrrrrrrrrrr.

loves;
10:15 PM;

was like having a super suay day yesterday. supposed to change handphone, end up the stupid shop got NO STOCKS! just totally spoils my whole day. so in the end went to safra to see if there's any starhub outlet there due to some misunderstandings. halfway went to buy ice cream, the ice cream machine was spoilt as well. oh ya, and safra don't have any starhub outlets.

HOW SUAY CAN I GETTTTTT????!

oh enough about my suayness. i went for the dialogues in the dark session yesterday. this session is to let us know more about the feelings of the visually handicapped people and how they cope with their daily life. basically, we were like blinded for 1 hour walking with a guide in the dark house. it was quite fun and i feel really lost and helpless in there. but the guide, who's visually handicapped as well, was really great! his explaination was soooooo precise i think he could get a AD for his reports/ or for writing a instruction manual. lols. if it is free, i don't mind going again and again to experience more of it. but it costs $6 for the next trip.

have to accompany jun tee for a haircut later on. AND I'M DYING TO GET MY HANDS ON MY NEW PHONE! KNS.

:(

loves;
8:10 AM;

just write one and its gone.

too lazy to write a new one. can't blame me. anyway, i'm recording my own voice now. wahahaha.

loves;
9:54 PM;

am starting my magic slimming plan today. and i'm already so bugged by it. that magic thing really makes it so hard for me to breathe. so much for slimming down. i feel like giving up now. zzz.

i was like a sleeping corpse today again, duno why. i just can't to sleep at night, but feel damn sleepy in the morning. dun think its mid life crisis right? it can't be that early, i'm only 19!
but give me a reason why i keep tossing and turning at night, and i can sleep so well in school?

anywayyyyy

initially, i planned to go for a hair treatment at chapter 2. but turns out i didn't. now having those kind of save money thought, so guai right? if its the past, i would straight away go treatment liao, still think so much. hais.

recovering from my previous BIGGGGG cough, my voice is about 75% back, but still not fully back. i still cannot reach all my high notes which i can reach before that stupid cough. and i'm dyingggggggg to go KBOX!!!!

I WANT TO SINGGGGGGGGG WITH A MICCCCCCC!

please let my real voice come back...

looking forward to thursday! :D

loves;
7:25 PM;