everytime i feel cheated, betrayed, naive and whatsoever feelings; this would be my first ranting ground. not to my friends, not to my closest friends, but here. this is where nobody will judge the things i have done, the choice i have made, the mistakes that i choose to repeat over and over again. this is perfect.
and yet again, i feel cheated. i have commit a mistake that i repeated in the past. but i don't care. is that the correct mental attitude to have? i think its wrong, but i didn't wana care. what is to come is to come, and if it is to go, its right that i should let it go right? so it doesn't matter whether he's the right one, the wrong one, or the cheating one. it doesn't matter!
oh boy, i feel so pathetic for having this kind of extreme naive mentality. maybe its the loneliness thats making a scene. or maybe its just me yearning for some kind of security it makes me wana do something crazy.
anyways, i went to see the outer IR yesterday. its sooooooooo beautiful! still waiting for the opening of the theme park so i can play. and guess what? i'm actually truely really experiencing singapore's nightlife today for the first time in my 20 years! but i know it won't be anywhere near fun, but only uncomfortable and waste of money to get a taxi ride home. lols.
yes, maybe i shouldn't think too much on things that are... not really... realistic.
