friendship is getting rather strained because of somebody, or so i think. and i might really have been the loose girl that he think i am. i thought i would really care how others view me. but turns out that i don't really care at all. and its pointless trying to get my meaning and thoughts across when people just don't understand why i'm thinking this way or what kind of person i really really really am. so yea, my point is, nobody really understands me at all!
working as usual today, or rather as usual everyday. i'm really looking forward to a breadtalk gathering soon. its like i can be so happy around those guys, maybe because they crap too much, or maybe because they're sort of easy going like me. hahaha. and free drinks and bread and laughter! i love it!
something weird happened today. which caused a little bit of uneasiness in me really. and i don't know what to do at all. its so confusing. its like you have to be hurt the person in order not to cause more hurt in the future. argh! i think you guys understand right? nvm, doesn't matter even if you all don't understand.
anyway, i'm gonna meet herbal tea for dinner on monday, darling ming hui for dinner again on tuesday. oh and MAYBE steamboat on thursday, i really really hope there'll be steamboat. then my yoga is left with the following two days. so pathetic can, i want to go yoga EVERYDAY!!! hais. oh, and the most frightening thing is i actually feel my hand trembling when i'm taking the honey brown sauce for my pepper lunch. am i getting hyperthyroids too? the only good thing about hyperthyriods is that one will lose weight for no reason, which i don't see happening on me. so maybe not. lols.
i don't know why i'm writing so much today. maybe because i'm feeling really vexed now and i really need to get it out. but even blogging doesn't allows me to rant all out. because its not private. and there are some things i just cannot disclose, esp my very personal feeling. and its because of those judgers. i hate it when people judge me when they don't even know what i think, who i am. stupid bastards.
