sometimes... i think i still want him back after all the bad things he done, after the torture that he let me go through, the heartbroken feeling he brought me. i still feel like maybe i want him back in my life, even if i'll suffer another heartbreak. what still matters? i don't know anymore. i just know that he's a bastard for cheating on his gf again and again. how do i know? i have my ways of course. maybe all cheaters are lidat, they leave you wanting for more when in reality they don't care about you or your presence for that matters.
i only cried for three guys, and i clearly remember who they are. those are the ones whereby i gave my heart, and they left me heartbroken because they just do for some reason. and yes, i always seem to meet the bad guys. and when i met some decent ones, i don't have feelings for them. whats wrong with me.
i want to go somewhere where nobody knows me at all. somewhere i will be appreciated because i have a great personality. somewhere where nobody will judge anybody else because they believe all are equal and special in their own ways. somewhere where people are always nice and funny and friendly. because this world is so cruel it makes me wana stay away.
i'm not emo making this post, just thoughts at the moment.
