everything just starts to happen the same way it used to happen before. now i'm starting to think i have a curse on myself.

maybe its just not fated yet.
i hate myself like seriously.
but i hate them more.

loves;
11:08 AM;

how do you know if a guy wants you or your body? thats the question thats always lingering. i wanted to judge it for myself, make my own decision without any other suggestions swaying my thoughts. and yes, i'm scared i'll take the wrong step.

because i really can't trust guys. and yet, i don't care anymore. why should i? when all the past experience have already proved me right. and here i am wishing you'll proved me wrong. and it'll be yet another mistake. except this time, a larger one.

loves;
8:19 PM;

they say you're somewhere in this world, so why can't i find you?
are you even there in the first place.
will i have the courage to believe that it is true?

loves;
9:03 AM;

its been so long since i updated.
my temper has been really bad recently. mad over little things that really doesn't matter.
cannot really stand certain people now. i've become so .... bad.
really have a strong urge to go overseas now.
maybe studying overseas may not be that bad after all, if only i have that kind of money.

thinking back, when is my life really good?
i couldn't remember any part of my past which i can consider them really happy.
seems like i had a bad childhood. haha.
but not about that at all.

time just seems to fly right now.
but the memories remain.
i hate bad memories.

loves;
8:01 PM;

just had a feeling of leaving this town and going for overseas study. if not for the hugeeeeee expenses, i might already have gone.

have a bad feeling for july. and guess i'm right. i seem to have used up my luck in june. now i just wana rest well and... do nothing at all.

loves;
9:13 PM;